Katsuya-urusaki

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Name: Kurai Hokori
Age:18
Gender: male
Sexuality: either
Race: human
nationality: Japanese/ British
date of birth: undecided
height: 5"9'
weight: 134lbs
markings & tattoos: none
eye color: green
hair color: Redish brown
hair style: Short

other: Use's Kotodama, he can only use it twice and only when angered.
personality: very kind, polite to elders. Sticks up for himself if endangered or enraged. Especially if friends are involved.
biography: He was born japanese but grew up in britain for a while. He does speak a little japanese but mostly slang. He has a slight accent from britain but not to harsh. He likes to be alone but doesnt mind hanging out (especially if there is food involved XD).[/color][/i][/b][/align]

went to anime revolution 2012  and the first day was the 17th of august. Ironically it was my 20th birthday. I got to meet Ron Rubin (Artemis), Susan Roman (sailor Jupiter), Vincent Corazza (tuxedo mask), and Katie Griffin (sailor mars). I did  a voice impression for Susan and Ron and they loved my voice. Susan said i would do well in the voice acting business because i had such a cute voice, and Ron gave me advice on how to start my career. I was so over joyed I almost cried. I also got a hug from sugar Lyn Beard, Vincent Corazza and Ron Rubin. It was  the best day imaginable  for me. all four of them loved my book as well that I was using for their signatures ^w^ I'm so glad that i've come so far with my mental development. My mom was told for years that I wouldn't live passed the age of 8 in my mind, and that i wouldn't do well in the world. But to come to my 20th birthday and be like a normal adult, to walk up to my idols and have no fear, i was so proud and over joyed. I want to say this in confidence, I have come a long way. I have over come, depression, anxiety, ADHD and Autism. I have an altered mind but i threw away the words the doctors told my mother and got passed all the obstacles that my mind set in place for me. I wont let anything stop me. I even was in a horrible car accident that rendered my back almost useless. I even got passed that obstacle. To have been so weak and grown so strong, I urge you others to help those in need to become strong as I have. The weak minded can become strong with the right help. They are normal in every aspect, they may seem different on the outside but they are 100% the same on the inside. I am so proud to say all this and have lived to 20. I am hoping for 20 more years to come, and from there I will wait 20 more years and so on. I am grateful to all who have helped me along the way and for those of you who have shown me your kindness. Thank you.
                                                                                                   ~Katsuya <3

In your dreams,
you can't hide from fate.
You will see,
there's no escape.
In this land,
so vast and free.
You will have,
no regrets.

How can we,
find outselves?
When their is,
so many lies.

In this vast world,
hides the truth.
When will we,
find our answers?

can't you see,
it's hiding in plain sight!
There is only you,
stopping yourself.
The truth you seek,
is just a waste of time.
Because you,
Are hiding the truth.

A poem I wrote a little while ago.

"showing emotions is no sign of weakness. It is the opposite, It means you are strong enough to know what you want"

In the today's present, people (mostly men/boys) are taught to "toughen up" or "Grow a thicker skin". But what does the underlining message actually mean? "don't cry in public" or "crying makes you weak". I however am a girl and I have been told these my entire life. I had anxiety problems because of these factors and bullying in my life and other personal problems (like everyone). It's o.k. to cry, even if society says it's not. You don't have to be skinny as a nail to be beautiful and you don't have to be good looking to be beautiful. It's what's in the personalities and thoughts and emotions of others that we learn to grow and find those special people in our lives. I'm getting sick and tired of hearing whats socially acceptable in public. Like it's not ok to cry, or tell someone you don't like something. I can understand certain things like swearing and public exposure. Those are just common sense. But when was it not ok to use your emotions and opinions? I am getting over my anxiety gradually because I've learned to communicate and tell people how i feel and not feel guilty. I'm a very selfless person, so i did nothing for myself. But I've learned to be a bit selfish sometimes now. And it's a good thing to say no sometimes. I used to be afraid to tell my friends that i didn't want to hang out so I would just tag along, even if i didn't want to go. But my friends sat down and had a nice long talk with me and told me that it was ok to not want to hang  out and that I didn't have to feel guilty if they were upset cause i didn't want to hang out. I cried that day, because i could finally be myself and who I truly am to my friends. Even if we fight a bit more, fighting brings friends closer together if you can pull through those storms and stick together. Fighting isn't always good, but to just sit and explain certain things about yourself to friends and learn more the better. It also lets you learn about yourself more. XD sorry i'm rambling now but I've just learned so much in the last 9 weeks that I feel like a heavy burden has been lifted. And I'm proud of the friends I have today. I wouldn't change it for the world. Well a few tweaks are always good but hey if we weren't dysfunctional then everyone would be the same and that would just be a boring world. If you read through all of this I thank you and also sorry for the many segways XD  ~Katsuya